wen
Sunday, December 11, 2005
have you ever felt detached from your life? for the past few months, i haven't really been quite myself... i find myself staring at the scenary before me, but not really taking it in... i find myself engaging in great conversations with pple, but not really having full control of what i say... it's as if i can see the words flowing out of my mouth, but i can't quite understand what i'm saying...it's the weirdest feeling....
countless hours of cramming, millions of necrotised brain cells, and hundreds of cups of coffee later, my year end exams are finally over. (okay, i am exaggerating, but it sure feels like it), and if all goes well, i'll be a 5th year med student. gone are the days when you can smile back at the consultants and say "sorry, but we are only 4th year med students, thus we have no idea what u've just said" it's scary and even overwhelming, but i can't wait. (ok enough of geeky med talk)
home has been great... nice convos in family dinners, big comfy bed, great home-cooked food, earnest advice from friends.... these are only some of teh reasons why sg will always, always have a special place in my heart... but i find that i've changed somewhat over the years.... i yearn to spend the rest of my life in a place that's less restrictive, with less rules and regulations, and better weather... i wanna have my own big labrador... a house by the beach.... i'll sit in my porch every morning... sipping my mocha, reading the papers, sharing a moment with that special someone... i'll jog on the beach with my labby, with the sea breeze lightly caressing my face....
hmm i'm just rambling aren't i...
i haven;t felt this unsure and unfocussed in a while... this is not me... i need to rescue myself from the dungeon of confusion soon.... soon