wen
Thursday, February 12, 2004
THAT FUNNY FEELING
two more days.. and i'll be back in melb.... and this time round, i'm missing singapore more than ever... somehow there is a sense of dread... guess it's cos' i'm moving into a new apartment in a new environment... that's the prob with taureans.. we hate changes..
of course, the impending mega workload is not helping...
but that's not the real reason...
truth is, i feel bad... even though i have been working during most of my time here, i still feel kinda bad... i thought by earning some money on my own, i'll feel better abt the fact that my parents have to shoulder the immense burden of supporting my overseas education.
but i was wrong.
i'm feeling even worse than before...
i feel that........
i haven't been spending enough time at home
i haven't given my lil sis enough guidance abt her sch work... i didn't even know that she had a test today till i read her blog entry, didn't even realise that she cut her hair until a day after
i haven't been helping out at home enough...
i haven't talked to my parents enough..
i didn;t even fight with my siblings this time round, which is really weird....
it pains me... it pains me to see my dad working so hard, to see my mum always so busy with the household chores...
and what abt me? i'll be off to melb in a jiffy, enjoying life there, eating wherever i want, doing whatever i want.....
bottom line is..i wish ibcould have done more, helped out more, i wish i have 48 hours a day instead of 24......